Tito Jaime

I mean, Jaime Licauco. He doesn't like to be addressed as "Tito" or "Sir".

A great teacher. A great psychic-teacher. He taught me a lot about the hidden laws of nature and ancient mysteries of life. I think he is an epitome of the person I want to become. Somebody who is attuned with the self and Nature. GOd has always said "the Kingdom is within you". SO to be attuned with the self is to be "at home" in the Kingdom.

I feel lucky to have crossed path with him. Never have I realized this unknown man in the Philippines is a known and respected authority on paranormal outside the Philippines. Just recently, he was invited in Poland for a series of talks and seminars and he is being invited to return there soon for a 3-year contract to develop the innermind of a certain branch of the Polish government. That is just how great he is. And if I remember it right, he could be one of those people who trained the CIA the psychic approach to investigations. This one I am not sure though but there is one government agency in the US whose staff he trained. I should start doing again what Jaime used to teach me and make use of the gift of knowledge he imparted on me. What a precious gift I have but grossly unused. I allowed my fears to overcome and take hold of me, not trusting that within me is a power waiting to be tapped. The bible said: use your talents or lose it. I hope God has not taken it back yet. Hope all is not lost. I don't need fame or money. I have had the experience of having money and a share of fame. But they did not ease the discomfort I have within my soul. I feel that the water that my soul thirsts for is just around here, within me, just within my circle, just within my reach. I got to find it. I know it is just right here. I know.

The pack rat

Dig this:

1. I still have the SLR camera given me by my father in 1984. It is still alive and functioning. The digicams have evolved many times within the last 5 years but the mechanical SLR camera remained unchanged and stable. I may buy a thousand digicams for convenience but I will never trade my SLR with any of them.

2. I still have the bath robe that was also gifted to me in 1988. Its color used to be dark choco brown with a maroonish hue. Now it's lightened to a choco latte (the lighter version). I am still using it mind you. Its fluffiness may have diminished over the years, but the after-shower warmth it is able to give has not. And mind you again, it has served me well during the winters in Japan when showering was a sacrifice and the heating system never reaches the shower room.

3. I still have the jewelries given also by my father in 1981. They are still alive now--although some have already broken parts. I am thinking of passing them on to my niece who seems to love dressing up. Had I daughter today, she would have "inherited" my jewelries today.

4. The gold Rado scatch-proof watch is also still alive. It was given in 1986.

5. A 100% white cotton towel from Brazil (bought in 1988) is still alive today. My darling Damein in fact have used it when he visited me in Japan. After several soakings in chlorinated detergent solution, after having used it as a rag in an emergency spill in the lab, it is still as fluffy as it was first bought and still do feel very nice and soft to the body after shower.

6. Other things bought in the late 80's that are still alive today: calculator (1988), a scissor (1981), hair dryer (1982), a Solingen scissor (1981) etc etc (I will post them later if I remember them).

And take note, it is now 2007.

Most of my friends would raise their eyebrows when I show them my "treasures". At first, I would ask them to guess how old they are (and more often than not, they are wrong). But when I tell them it is far older than they think, they'd say "whaaaat?" with matching popping out of eyes. They couldn't believe I could keep such things for a long time in good condition. Well, I think that is what pack rats are. And I think that is how I am as well in relationships. I really treasure my relationships. WHen they break, I take time to forget them. I really hope and pray that somebody worthy of this "virtue" of mine will cross my path soon. I wish my next man can match up my capacity to hold and to persevere. I am not a manipulative person, so you can't expect me to be always on guard and come up of things to manipulate and hold my man. You won't also find me investigating the content of my husband's wallet (well unless the contents are spread wide open for me to read "accidentally and effortlessly"). I wouldn't like to do that. So my man should be somebody who will hold on to me on his own, without any effort from me. I hope I will find him...But I am also picky. So I dont know how this lucky man will ever find me.

The Latin Mass

Recently, the current pope (Pope Benedict XVI) issued a pastoral (?) letter about the plan to revert back all the masses to Latin Mass. I am all for it, for the following reasons:

1. The Latin mass will provide us with "one language" in saying the mass. So wherever you are, whoever you are, you can join the mass and won't feel any segregation. In other words, this "one language" will erase borderlines that separate each race or culture.

2. Latin, if intoned correctly, has powers to directly penetrate the soul without the mind knowing it (and therefore, free from any filtration, bias, conditioning by the mind). I believe the essence of every religion is to change man, if needed, and/or to bring him closer to God. And since God is within each of us, religion ought to bring us closer to our own self too. When we are attuned with ourselves, there is nothing we should fear. Nothing will perturb us. And all will be well in our world. Ever wonder why saints and sages of all times and ages are not afraid to embrace poverty, difficulties, even diseases? Because they have found God. Remember the parable of the woman who found a pearl? Why can she afford to give away her belongings and keep only "the pearl"? I wish I can reach that level of "spiritual evolution" where nothing will ever distabilize me because GOd is with me. I know God is everywhere and that He is within me. But I guess I still have a lot of divings (into my soul) to do to fully realize Him in me.

3. Corollary to no. 2, the Catholic religion wants only the best in every parishioner but the negative influences and conditioning of the external world simply overrides this desire. It would be difficult to teach chastity, charity, humility, sincerity, etc when the society around you shows the opposite happens daily as if they are normal and sound thing to do. When you reprimand a junior to do what is upright and sound, it is not uncommon to be rebutted with "why, what's wrong with that? Everyone else is doing that anyway". If you are somebody who has learned the rules of sound living by obedience to "the rules", such rebutttal is either insulting, discouraging, hopeless, and downright frustrating. It is indeed with great difficulty to bring the explanation across to a mind (and heart) conditioned by a corrupt society; much less tell him to just obey and follow ("WHaaat? We are not robots?", they might say). So what is the best way to change his mindset then? There can be no best way but I think the Latin Mass can be helpful in staging a mindset/inner state conducive for contemplation because as I have said, the Latin words have power if intoned correctly (and therefore, the celebrant must be trained at proper intonation). A weekly dose of Latin Mass can surely reform us little by little while the mind is wondering what those strange words are doing to ourselves (but eventually the monotony of the chants and the ritual in general will tire you and you will have to stop asking and rationalizing).. And before the mind realizes it, WE have changed for the better.

4. I believe that some words have power. I mean POWER to even defy physical laws. Ever wonder why many magicians are able to "create magic" through incantations of a certain verse? Even wonder why shamans chant first or undergo an elaborate ritual (with matching chanting) before entering a state of healing? Ever wonder why the walls of Jericho in the Old Testament just came crumbling down to the sound of trumpets and other instruments instructed by God to use? Ever wonder why "The Word" was used in Genesis? Certain words must certainly have powers. In a society where freedom of speech ( and to rebut) is a valued right, I guess the use of powerful words that can't be rebutted not be filtered by the rational mind should be in order. And that is where the Latin Mass can be helpful.

In addition to words, sounds can also be used, with the guidance of "experts", of course. With "experts", I mean professionals who know the subliminal meaning of the sound, or perhaps a "seer or clairvoyant" who is able to see the effect or vibration of a certain sound at the spiritual plane.

5. The Latin Mass will also provide no room for egotistical priests to use the mass for personal end because in this kind of mass, they are nothing but just "spokesman" or "reciter" of the mass. Because the mass is in Latin too, people will not be sparring for better interpretation of the gospel. The Latin Mass leaves no room for intellectual discourse. SO everyone is humbled and silenced as the entrancing chants move everybody's spirits to soar with the music--which is , I think, the best approach/attitude to The Mass.

I don't think we need to understand the Mass word for word. We only need to be contemplative and the Latin Mass can do it. In the silence of our heart, in due time, we will learn what we need to learn by just being so. The Seers, psychics, saints and sages of all ages, or even secret societies never ever learned by intellectual discourse but by just keeping still and quiet.

Contemplation on Your Power

by Peter & Helen Evans
(Innerself.com)

The next time you read in the newspaper of someone who opposes your beliefs, think of the world you'd like to live in. The next time you see a murderer on TV, think of what world you would like to live in. Use these provocations to remind yourself of what you believe, and what you desire. This is not insincerity. This is taking control of your own life and making a better world for all of us.

The next time someone does something that would ordinarily be annoying, be mindful of the world you'd like to live in, and instead of just automatically being annoyed, choose patience, or love, or laughter. It is up to you.

Our thoughts are things. Our emotions reflect those thoughts -- our world reflects our thoughts. So begin creating the world you want to live in. Making the choice is sometimes difficult. You may have to overcome some familiar habits or reactions.